Chapter 14   
                                   Nightmares  








    I dreamed of death. Killing. Gutting. Skinning. I tryed to stop myself but I couldn't. Why was I doing this? Why? Why! Why! Why!Why!Why! I kept asking until I awoke with small pupils but large eyes. I looked around scared there might be a body due to me. I looked around quickly then my eyes ran into mom. She was looking down the staires. I guessed the girls would be home soon.
   I shuffled quitly as I watched her. She seemed so pretty just now, like I just met her. She looked over at me and I got scared like a wild animal. I didn't want to hurt her. She gasped happily and wrapped her arms around me and squizzed me. I sat not moveing, what if I had a knife and didn't know it. I checked my hands and slowly hugged back. She stroked my hair back like before. I closed my eyes and smiled pushing my head against her hand. Like a cat you could campare to. She smiled.
   "Are you alright?" she asked queitly. I smiled and nodded. I wasn't ready to talk yet.
  "Okay. You know you were knocked out right?" I nodded again. She smiled and stroked my hair again.
   "I could hear you talking." I whispered. Her eyes got a little wide.
  "Really? How?" she asked.
  " I just listened." I said smileing. She smiled back and hugged me again. I hugged and squizzed her gently. She smiled, I could think what she was probley thinking, he is deffinatly better. We sat there hugging one another not wanting to let go, or at least I didn't, but then my sister Shorty burst threw the door angry as ever and Lauren crept into the kitchen to hide. Shorty started bursting out cuss words that I didn't even know about from the looks of mom, didn't know eighther. Mom ran downstaires to comfort her and I sat and watched them whisper and screetch to one another. I woundered what had happened to her. So I stept out of bed gently and ended up falling. My legs seemed weak. I ignored my pained hand and got up. I walked to Lauren and asked her what had happened.
   "Her boy friend dumped her for another girl." she explained sadly looking at Shorty and mom. My eyes got big with sadness, then small with anger, then normal as I thought of how to help her.
   That night at dinner everyone was quiet, except mom. She talked about how she ran into Chuck and what they talked about. Lauren and dad chuckled at a few things but I just ate and Shorty glared at her food as she ate it. We all went to bed quietly and easily. As mom tucked me in I woundered about tomorrow and looked up to her. She raised an eyebrow.
  "Mom. Am I staying home?" She nodded.
  "Until your hand for surely won't break."
  "What if that's a long time?"
  "Then it's a long time. Don't worry. I've called Dave and Adri's mom's to drop off homework for you to do at home. You tell me the answeres and I'll write them down. Alright?" she said confedently. I smiled and nodded. She then tucked me in and I went quickly to sleep.
   I woke up the next day to everyone getting ready. It was weird knowing I would be here resting while they worked all day. Luckely mom had the day off so she stayed home with me. When she couldn't stay home dad did, and when they both couldn't stay home I went to my aunt Nina's, or Sabrina's. My cousin had bought a home and was too busy to watch me. So I just enjoyed it as I could, sometimes Dave or Adri came over, which was nice, but I couldn't do much so they told me about the days at school. It made me miss it, but I didn't want to break my hand. They also told me that our teacher had been fired for abuseing me so they were staying with the only other first grade teacher there was, Mrs. Shuantae. She was a nice old lady and did creative things. I couldn't wait to get back to school now, but I stayed home. I got a check up on my hand every two weeks, but everytime we went it seemed like I still needed more time to rest it, and more, and more and more.....